COOP again... Here for another late night posting. So this year, as a new year resolution, I wanted to have healthier relationships with everyone who was in my life. I wanted to make new friends and network better and overall just be more of a people's person. Right now I say fuck it.
Just today I got into like 4 different arguments! Now maybe... just possibly... maybe it could be due to a communication barrier (via txt message, IM, Facebook Chat and all that shit), BUT regardless, arguments should not just sprout from no where. I have concluded that it's gotta be me. Now don't get me wrong, these people I argued with today are already pretty difficult to talk to ANYWAY but that doesn't explain why I quarrelled with them. Cuz I know me, I don't usually get into arguments like that; matter of fact I shy away from them... or i used to anyway. I don't see any use for arguments, just some back n forth shit that goes no where, until one person gives up or gets beat up or whatever.. How often do arguments get resolved by agreements? Almost unheard of. but anyway...It's gotta be me though. I blame no one else. It's like the way I communicate or something. It either doesn't connect well with others or it's just too much. I tried, but i don't know how to help that. Bad habit maybe?
Shit you know how when you get mad at someone and write them off? Well I don't get mad, i just get that mental check list poppin like "iight, i got you... you done" and that person is no longer a homie, acquaintance, or anything of the sort. Well I've done that too often. On my phones contact list, I put those people on a 'X-List' lol so they just get a X infront of their name n show up last on the contacts. At the beginning of this year i took everyone off the list to start fresh n new; showing grace, if u will. Buuuuttt for some reason, at this moment the list is even bigger than it was before I graced those people off the list. Iono... i guess not everyone is made for....everyone. I guess thats the reason why in highschool i kept a close circle and that's it. By nature, I'm not a people's person. I accept that shit...but still at the end of the day Good Karma is my Motivation. It's a Virtue. It's what I live by.
p.s. Sos n Ym, we need to get back on this blog shit with actual blog articles n shit . . .